Look, I’ve gone back and forth a few times on how to start this.

My name is James, and I was diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 39. It had been missed when I was younger due to other health issues at the time. The only reason I got diagnosed now, was because the 2020 pandemic sent me into a complete mental breakdown. Even after the diagnosis, I’ve found it harder and harder to grasp onto my errant thoughts and focus for more than a few minutes.

I’ve tried a variety of tricks. Meditation, art therapy, supplements, etc. Professional medical help has been…unreliable. Mostly just sitting on waiting lists and trying to navigate the good old health insurance system while my mind continues to behave like an erratic child hopped up on candy.

Unsurprisingly, as someone who has spent a lifetime with untreated ADHD, I have some massive impulse control issues. Included in that is the regular practice of randomly buying a domain name registration and playing around with a website. I’ve never been particularly good at it, and I lack the discipline to make anything effective, but it’s always a good time and keeps me entertained for a few weeks, or until something better comes along.

Thus this site. On an whim, I purchased the fire over water domain because of the phrase “An Overbalance of fire over water,” which was used by Hippocrates to describe a health condition that most scholars now agree was probably ADHD, or at least something on the neurodivergent spectrum. The plan is to use this to document and share my experiences working on my own mental health and the wonderful fun that comes with it. I have no expectation of anyone reading it, and I reserve the right to get bored and give up on this at a moment’s notice.